music makes my world go round

I have a new computer and recently its been giving me a lot of shit.

You would think that a new computer would be a fresh slate, free of bugs and hiccups, but its not. Maybe I'm just technologically handicapped. Anyway, along with spontaneously shutting down, forgetting my settings, and whining at me in the form of high pitched beeping, it also only gave me half of my music back when I downloaded itunes again. Its hard to believe I've gone three months with less than half of my music collection available to me. Honestly, I didn't even realize the extent to which my music had been depleted. I only knew that many of the songs on my running playlist (DLed from my last computer) no longer came up on this one. The worst part was, most of my cds were back at home, so reuploading them was out of the question. What does one do when the music that defines who you are is no longer available? When you can no longer remember what it was you lost? Its almost like knowing you have some stellar memories but you just just cannot recall what they were. Theres just an unexplained hole.

Well, finally I took some action and did a little detective work. Thanks to my amazing dad, it turns out I have backups of my old computer on my new hardrive. Multiple backups. It wasn't easy, but after some sleuthing, I finally found that unnammed and inconspicuous file that housed a treasure chest of long lost music. I was overjoyed, ecstatic! There will always be something about my music that never ceases to move me, physically and emotionally. Much of it really does have a memory or five attached to it. Some of it is just so beautiful that every time I hear it I stop whatever I'm doing to listen. Some of it defines my outlook on life, like a religion or a mantra. Lots of it just makes me smile. Tonight, I spent the entire evening blasting tunes from my computer to fill up the living room and my head while I studied, cooked, stretched, and studied some more. Despite the studying, it really was a lovely night. I'm pretty sure it had to do with finally having the soundtrack to my life back.